Friday, June 4, 2010

Why Can't I Just Be Normal, Like Everyone Else

As many of you know, I am still on demand breastfeeding Claire. From that my periods are crazy inconsistent. It's so annoying, especially when you are thinking about ttc #2 in the up coming months. Some months I spot and other months it's like Niagara Falls. Some months I skip and other months I go every 3 weeks. It's like "surprise" month to month!

I know breastfeeding does weird things to your cycle and if it does return to "normal" it will probably be after I stop on demand breastfeeding Claire. (Which I'm planning being right around her 1st birthday, due to a road trip we are taking soon after.) Who am I kidding - I probably won't become "normal". I've never been "normal". Am I pissed at that, yes but it's not like I don't have hope and faith. I have hope and faith that maybe, just maybe I will conceive baby #2 all natural but I also have hope and faith that if my period stays wacky I can always go get help. Getting help doesn't scary me (especially since we live in Illinois when infertility treatments are covered by our insurance- so money isn't the issue.) Although it wouldn't be my first choice, I'm not ashamed to ask/get help. I want more babies and I will do anything I can possibly to have that happen! I'm even thinking about trying all natural vitamins to get my period on a normal schedule - whatever works right!?

I just wish for one moment, I could feel normal. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I have the most beautiful, sweet baby girl ever. She has been one of the best things that's happened to Eric and I. She is our world. We just want to give her siblings. She loves little kids and I think she would will be a great big sister. Again, I have hope and faith that I will have more babies - hopefully 3 more, God willing. I know God has a plan for me and I trust Him. No matter natural or with help- it will be His plan that I am following. Let's just hope when we actually start ttc baby #2, we will be able to get pregnant but before that, let's hope once I stop breastfeeding my period evens out and becomes ::gasp:: "normal" or if that doesn't happen, maybe the all natural vitamins will do that trick.                             ::Fingers Crossed::

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  1. MindyJune 5, 2010 at 9:31 AM

    I don't comment often, but I do read your blog and I wanted to say that for me, I was never ever normal. I never had regular periods, I'd go about 6months without a period and then boom it'd happen. And somehow I magically conceived my daughter and now... my periods are 100% regular. about 6months after I gave birth (and stopped BFing) they just went to normal.

    so there is hope out there.

    I know I read somewhere that something about pregnancy and labor does something to a woman's hormones and it can reset it and make us "normal".

    I'm hoping it does the same for you once you're done BFing.

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  2. Mommy Boots (formerly KarmaPearl)June 8, 2010 at 4:56 AM

    Ok so this may seem counterproductive since, you know, you're wanting to TTC #2 soon but after you wean Claire, have you thought about taking birth control pills for a while to help regulate? Just a few cycles to try and get everything back on track? Birth control pills helped me become super regular; you could almost set your watch by my cycles. I was never REALLY irregular to begin with but they made me ridiculously regular. Even once I went off them, my cycles stayed super duper regular.

    Just a thought! Didn't know if you'd talked to your doc about that.

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  3. Mommy Boots (formerly KarmaPearl)June 8, 2010 at 4:57 AM

    ALSO, if you need TTC advice don't be afraid to ask me. It took us 10 cycles to conceive Nellie, so I'm sort of an expert LOL

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